Re-evaluation.

It's Monday.

I don't have Mondays off anymore. It was switched to Friday. And I'm starting to think that I want those Mondays off back! Fridays are hectic and it's hard to get any studying done when people think you are already OFF!

NOT!

And it's hard to STAY in a studying mindset because you want the weekend to start already! Well, for me, I just can't wait to get home to play with Isaiah & Audrey. I guess that's a "problem" that I have to deal with. Boy, what a challenge!

But I at least got to start on my studyguide for our next subsection-which our next exam will be on. That's a change. Usually I don't ever get anything done on the weekends. I wish I'd done more though!

When I was at the library this past Friday, I picked up some random book called, 'The 50 Best Ways to Simplify Your Life"....I don't know, I like sh*t like that. If you've known me long enough, you'll know how very easily I'm drawn to those kinds of titles. Simple this, organize that, de-clutter, re-arrange....etc. But I've come to find out, I like the IDEA and the THEORY behind organization. I just can't seem to put it into practice.

And I can't use my children as an excuse. I have been disorganized since BEFORE I had them.

WHY??

I don't know!!

And I don't know why, for SOME odd reason I seem to want to start now when my WHOLE life is in chaos and disorder, and I really don't have time or SHOULDN'T have time for it, why I choose NOW to do it.

Simple. Because time IS now. Get it?

I can't be no 40 something year old and wish I'd started 'then' when that time is NOW.

Well, we'll see how it works out. For one thing, I'm going to have to live with a LOT less internet browsing time. THAT'S for SURE going to be the BIGGEST challenge! Because a LOT of my downtime (which is the biggest TIMEWASTER in my life) is spent browsing stupid Sh*t on the internet. I'm sure when I map out a plan to pare down my time, I'll be able to have more TIME to do other things like, oh, STUDY & spend quality time with Isaiah & Audrey.

I'm down with that.

Hmm..now that I think about it, maybe it's the fact that I'm turning THREE-OH!! this year that is spurning this so-called change. Ha. 30. Bring it!!!!!!!!!

So, I got through the first, I believe, 4 "chapters" of the book. I'll start the update. But I gotta get a short snooze in b/c I've been up since 2ish this morning, & half the time was spent trying to connect to the damned internet!!!! Can you believe it?! Yup! Well, it's time to start being honest with myself, b/c when I'm honest, that's when the self-evaluation comes in, and I can critique myself. I'm better able at identifying what my problem is because I point it out myself.

Sweet!

Okay, school is at 7:30. I gotta be ready by at least 6:45. I can take a nap til 6:15. Awesome.

Hopefully by tomorrow, I'll have a more concrete idea of how much I want to devote my hours to each 'element' in my life.....like, blogging randomly this way for instance.....this might have to change. But sometimes, change is good, no?

Night!