Thanksgiving didn't really feel much like a "normal" Thanksgiving this year, and I'm not quite sure why. Sure, we had the turkey, the usual fare, the children running around doing their crazy, individual antics (Isaiah and his cousin Ally entertaining us with their dancing and singing, and Audrey playing Ms. "Photographer"/papparazzi!-"Smiyel!" They were really cute!), and with most of the family present, we even had the magic mike...but still, something just didn't feel right..to me, at least.
This year, I didn't even make it to my Auntie Fely's dinner at her house in Montebello. Cyrus' family had theirs this year at his Aunt & Uncle's house in Sun Valley, the first family gathering at their residence since they moved in just a few months ago. So I was NOT about to rush over all the way to the opposite part of town JUST to stay there for an hour or less. I know....I know....it's sad, but I'm SO tired!! Cyrus is tired.
He came home from graveyard shift in the morning and (even though he had the energy to play his x-box) I still pity the fool for not being able to function well enough when he does have to be with Isaiah and Audrey by himself.
Ugh! I HATE the fact that I have to actually go DO something for class tomorrow!! I mean, we're officially on "Thanksgiving Break" (even though it REALLY does NOT feel like Thanksgiving or the beginning of the holidays AT ALL!!), but all I can think about is the fact that I have work to catch up on and the fact that we are going to start clinicals this coming Tuesday.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
The lame (and VERY SCARY) thing is, I don't even think our teacher will allow me to go to clinicals. :(((((((((!!
First of all, I'm still missing a shot from my physical exam which I have had SO much problems with regarding the authorizations and the length of time between receiving them and my test results (the stupid, rude and careless medical assistants from my doctor's clinic should be FIRED!!), and now, our once $44-46 payment for the background check which is required of us BEFORE we go was bumped up to $88 because our instructor said the company with whom she was dealing with required TOO much information about the school and BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!! Gah!!!!
I was SO good to go and now I feel like I have to ask for MORE money!! I just had a classmate agree to pay for the balance of my clinical uniforms until I could pay her back, and this problem just showed up as if to say, "TA-DA! AND YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE HOME FREE!!.....NOT!!"
Ugh!!!!!
Time to pray again....
And also time to sleep. I have SO MUCH to do this weekend. We have our Basic Nursing Skills Test bright and early this coming Monday morning, I have 17 hours worth of remediation to make up for, most of it being absent from trying to work out my dumb situation with my darn physical exam requirements!! (a trip tomorrow with my 2 girl classmates and I will be going to which the teacher will give us 2 hours worth of remediation), writing about articles and doing learning objectives from our Basic Nursing textbook to complete ALL those hours worth of remediation. Ugh....and to think, if I'm not able to go to clinicals this Tuesday.....I have MORE remediation to work on.
Oh please tell me I can go....PLEEEEAAASE! :(
Anyway, I must sleep....I'm exhausted and certainly running on less than fumes by now.
Toodles! Good night y'all!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
A Much Needed Break. Sort of....
It's been awhile since I've written anything on this blog. A LONG while. And of course, it's understandable. That is why I gave this blog its name, right?
Tomorrow, it will be 10 weeks since I had my first day of class in the LVN program at East L.A. Occupational Center. I can't say that it hasn't been a challenge, (it REALLY has) especially the adjustment period, which, right now is really just an extension of the re-adjustment we-as in my family & all those living in the house-have all had to experience. And I know it's not going to get any better.....but that's expected.
I am at the Glendale Public Library at the moment, trying to snag a few moments to write this down just to put in my two cents because the year will be over before we know it (Christmas is in 6 weeks people. Crazy, huh?!)
Anyway...right now we are in our 10tgh week of Level 1, which will end at the start of winter break (if you can call it that....I'll be studying ALL vacation long. Ugh. I might find some time to enjoy it with the help of Isaiah & Audrey though. :) So far, we have had 6 major exams, and 3 more to go near the end of this level. I am supposed to be studying for the 1st of the last 3, which is over Geriatrics on Wednesday. We will be having a quiz over the subject tomorrow, which is when we return to class.
Oh yeah, btw, I've had all my Mondays OFF this whole time (THANK GOD).
However, I am dreading the start of clinicals which commences the week after Thanksgiving.
I am SO grateful to my Auntie Evelyn for providing me with the financial necessity to buy my uniforms. I'll post pics up once we get them in! Thank goodness I didn't have to buy new nursing shoes too b/c that would've been another expense. Ugh. I hate to keep mentioning the negatives, but this course sucks the MONEY right out of you!! And on top of that we have kids to provide for....all I keep telling Cyrus is "sacrifice a little now, great rewards in the future"....well, not exactly in those words. I just came up with that right now. Heh. But I feel llike I must always remind him that the "end" (of this program) is so very near. After we're done with this level, we've got 8 more months to go. 8 LONG months of HELL, I've heard, but God! It will be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.....did I mention REALLY?
WORTH IT!!
And I am personally counting down the days.
So what if I'm a little crazy by the end of next year?!
(No one's really "normal"....sorry to burst the perfect little bubble you've been living in)
So what if my kids look a little dirty & their clothes are all ratty?
(They're still alive, right?)
And, yeah, I owe people like, a gazillion dollars in time & money....
But after a month or so of reviewing, then I take my NCLEX-PN....
I can proudly say that I will be a Licensed Vocational Nurse! Woohoo!!
And then I go straight back into school. Cuz what I really want to get is my license as REGISTERED NURSE. It's just 1 more year for that (more or less....) but my plan is to maybe work at the same time & take classes. God-willing, it will all work out!
Okay, back to studying! I've pretty much "wasted" these past 2 hours on the computer since I got here.
Now, for two more GOLDEN, UNDISRUPTED hours of not having to bother with someone walking up the stairs & cracking their head, turning on the computer to play a game online, getting juice, wiping snotty noses, washing dirty dishes, feeding dogs, cleaning up after the dogs accidentally sh*t all over the carpet......okay, you get the picture.
;P
Tomorrow, it will be 10 weeks since I had my first day of class in the LVN program at East L.A. Occupational Center. I can't say that it hasn't been a challenge, (it REALLY has) especially the adjustment period, which, right now is really just an extension of the re-adjustment we-as in my family & all those living in the house-have all had to experience. And I know it's not going to get any better.....but that's expected.
I am at the Glendale Public Library at the moment, trying to snag a few moments to write this down just to put in my two cents because the year will be over before we know it (Christmas is in 6 weeks people. Crazy, huh?!)
Anyway...right now we are in our 10tgh week of Level 1, which will end at the start of winter break (if you can call it that....I'll be studying ALL vacation long. Ugh. I might find some time to enjoy it with the help of Isaiah & Audrey though. :) So far, we have had 6 major exams, and 3 more to go near the end of this level. I am supposed to be studying for the 1st of the last 3, which is over Geriatrics on Wednesday. We will be having a quiz over the subject tomorrow, which is when we return to class.
Oh yeah, btw, I've had all my Mondays OFF this whole time (THANK GOD).
However, I am dreading the start of clinicals which commences the week after Thanksgiving.
I am SO grateful to my Auntie Evelyn for providing me with the financial necessity to buy my uniforms. I'll post pics up once we get them in! Thank goodness I didn't have to buy new nursing shoes too b/c that would've been another expense. Ugh. I hate to keep mentioning the negatives, but this course sucks the MONEY right out of you!! And on top of that we have kids to provide for....all I keep telling Cyrus is "sacrifice a little now, great rewards in the future"....well, not exactly in those words. I just came up with that right now. Heh. But I feel llike I must always remind him that the "end" (of this program) is so very near. After we're done with this level, we've got 8 more months to go. 8 LONG months of HELL, I've heard, but God! It will be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.....did I mention REALLY?
WORTH IT!!
And I am personally counting down the days.
So what if I'm a little crazy by the end of next year?!
(No one's really "normal"....sorry to burst the perfect little bubble you've been living in)
So what if my kids look a little dirty & their clothes are all ratty?
(They're still alive, right?)
And, yeah, I owe people like, a gazillion dollars in time & money....
But after a month or so of reviewing, then I take my NCLEX-PN....
I can proudly say that I will be a Licensed Vocational Nurse! Woohoo!!
And then I go straight back into school. Cuz what I really want to get is my license as REGISTERED NURSE. It's just 1 more year for that (more or less....) but my plan is to maybe work at the same time & take classes. God-willing, it will all work out!
Okay, back to studying! I've pretty much "wasted" these past 2 hours on the computer since I got here.
Now, for two more GOLDEN, UNDISRUPTED hours of not having to bother with someone walking up the stairs & cracking their head, turning on the computer to play a game online, getting juice, wiping snotty noses, washing dirty dishes, feeding dogs, cleaning up after the dogs accidentally sh*t all over the carpet......okay, you get the picture.
;P
Thursday, September 10, 2009
hi
I'm taking a mind break. I'm doing a marathon reading, but my mind was going nowhere. I have class @ 7:30.
Let's just hope this doesn't become the "norm".
Let's just hope this doesn't become the "norm".
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Worst Case Scenario
Since the volvo is still unavailable, Cyrus made an arrangement with his dad to use his "replacement", an old beat-up American car. I'm not sure what the make is, but whatever it is, it's a pieceofcrap!
So I'm thinking I may have to take the bus on the way back home. No worries. Not like I've never taken it before. It's just been awhile. I am calling Cyrus right now to get the details on my mode of transportation. ::dialing:: No answer.
Right. So....I'm going to get ready now. And hopefully I will be informed really soon what the plans are.
So much for first day of school!!
The upside: I now have a cell phone. I am no longer living in the dark ages!! Yes! You may contact me now. Hahaha!
Okay, so I have been informed that: I will indeed make it to my first day of class today. Cyrus was dropped off by Marc. Awesomeness.
Anyway, to mark my first day as a nursing student, I want to share this very relevant poem I stumbled upon on the internet. It's funny, but downright honest. It is too bad that Isaiah and Audrey won't be able to understand exactly why I will be absent from their little lives today or for the rest of the year, actually. I just hope and pray that it doesn't scar them enough that they will remember too much. Although, Isaiah has the memory of an elephant, he may be the exception. Well, without further ado, here it is:
So I'm thinking I may have to take the bus on the way back home. No worries. Not like I've never taken it before. It's just been awhile. I am calling Cyrus right now to get the details on my mode of transportation. ::dialing:: No answer.
Right. So....I'm going to get ready now. And hopefully I will be informed really soon what the plans are.
So much for first day of school!!
The upside: I now have a cell phone. I am no longer living in the dark ages!! Yes! You may contact me now. Hahaha!
Okay, so I have been informed that: I will indeed make it to my first day of class today. Cyrus was dropped off by Marc. Awesomeness.
Anyway, to mark my first day as a nursing student, I want to share this very relevant poem I stumbled upon on the internet. It's funny, but downright honest. It is too bad that Isaiah and Audrey won't be able to understand exactly why I will be absent from their little lives today or for the rest of the year, actually. I just hope and pray that it doesn't scar them enough that they will remember too much. Although, Isaiah has the memory of an elephant, he may be the exception. Well, without further ado, here it is:
Neglected ChildrenAuthor unknown (but had to be aNursing student!)
Our home is seldom very clean
The meals are not as good
The meals are not as good
And we don’t take a bath,
As we ordinarily would.
The hamper is overflowing,
The ironing is seldom done,
The ironing is seldom done,
And the socks that were neatly in the drawer,
Are practically down to none.
She was a model mother,
The house was shiny and bright,
The house was shiny and bright,
She was so even-tempered,
And a perfect “guiding light”.
But all that now has changed,
Dust “neath the bed does pool”,
Dust “neath the bed does pool”,
Where is that wonderful mother?
Why Mother goes to school!
She has no time for cleaning,
We kids must do our best,
We’re having eggs for dinner,
Cause Mom is having a test!
She got a terrible longing,
A nurse she wanted to be,
A nurse she wanted to be,
So she nagged our dad for tuition
And the poor guy had to agree!
So every morning she packs her books
And walks out of the door,
And walks out of the door,
We’d like to try and stop her,
But we’re sticking to the floor!
We take our vitamins and drink our juice,
Cause it would be terribly cruel,
Cause it would be terribly cruel,
If we caught a cold and fever
And Mother couldn’t go to school!
So if you’re in the hospital,
And on your back you lie
And on your back you lie
If you happen to see a student nurse
Tell Mom we all said – Hi!
Monday, September 7, 2009
O....M....G!!!!
It's 9 in the morning. I have been awake since 8:30. That's not the problem.
The problem is that Marc is playing the FREAKING MUSIC ON FULL VOLUME!!!!!! And not only that....HE'S SINGING ALONG WITH THE SONG AT THE TOP OF HIS LUNGS!!!!!
GAAAAH!
And there are people yelling and shouting.
Really family? Really?
Aww, Isaiah, Audrey, & Cy just came back upstairs. Audrey has her hair in curlers, like she's getting ready for her debut or something. Oh MY..Thanks Lola! Hahahahaa! That's it.
Okay, I'm up!!!! I'm getting up. But they can't make me like it! Today better be a good day (ahem: Cyrus!)
just kidding. :P
The problem is that Marc is playing the FREAKING MUSIC ON FULL VOLUME!!!!!! And not only that....HE'S SINGING ALONG WITH THE SONG AT THE TOP OF HIS LUNGS!!!!!
GAAAAH!
And there are people yelling and shouting.
Really family? Really?
Aww, Isaiah, Audrey, & Cy just came back upstairs. Audrey has her hair in curlers, like she's getting ready for her debut or something. Oh MY..Thanks Lola! Hahahahaa! That's it.
Okay, I'm up!!!! I'm getting up. But they can't make me like it! Today better be a good day (ahem: Cyrus!)
just kidding. :P
I'm going to hate myself later today....
WHAT: I have just created my blog. (woohoo!)
I don't think I have ever had an official blog, not if you count Xanga which I never really considered a serious blog anyway. Just a bunch of random musings, if not mostly to vent about frustrations over a boy!
Well, this took me long enough!! I have been on the computer since 12 a.m., maybe even longer! Oh I really hope I stick with this otherwise I am going to kick myself in the shins for wasting what 3 hours I really needed to use for sleep. Sleep-deprivation on top of sleep-deprivation + THAT time of the month....yeah, you do the math!
But I figure this is worth it. I don't have to waste my time later this evening trying to come up with a title and a url for my blog. I am going to try and sleep a full 8 hours because I suspect it will be the last time I will EVER sleep for 8 hours until the end of August next year!
WHEN: It is the eve of the day I go back to school. I am officially a student....again! Only this time, I am in it to receive my license, finally! Even if it is just for Vocational Nursing, at this point, that is cause for celebration. Unfortunately, *some of you may not agree. Oh well! We will just have to agree to disagree on that issue.
WHY: I created this blog so that I could update you-my dear family & friends-on our family life. I can only imagine the worst after school starts: that this year will just be one big blur & I will miss out on most of the moments because my nose is stuck in my nursing books or sleeping or working, who knows? I sincerely believe that I am doing this to BETTER not only myself both academically & educationally, but to benefit my family. I am expecting the worst, & hoping for the best. I am nervous, scared, & excited all at the same time because, as many of you already know, this has been a long time coming. Yes, I should have finished a LOOOONG time ago. But you know what? I don't regret my children. Having them did not stop me from continuing to pursue what I wanted to do. It delayed it, somewhat.
Sure. I have a hard time, I'll admit. I have had a hard time and I will have an even harder time, if only for this year. But still I am BLESSED.
This is where you fall in.
HOW: You see, I could find a million and one things to be negative about, but I am choosing to remain positive. I am choosing to remain focused and remind myself why I am doing this in the first place. Your love, your on-going encouragement, and overall continued support, not just monetary, (if that is what you believe your role is in my life) is what is making this effort possible. I sincerely believe that we are only as strong as our support system.
WHO: In the past, the end goal was only for me to be able to provide for and create a life for myself, but now....Isaiah and Audrey have changed all of that. They are THE REASON.
This is an account of my journey, for ONE YEAR....
as a mom,
as a nursing student,
& as a partner.
And at the end of this journey, if 'this is all I have time for', (sharing snippets of daily life whether it be a line or an account of a whole story because, really, it IS all that I have time for) so that I can provide a better life for my children, myself, and my family as a whole, then my hope and prayer is that I will be able to say, 'it was worth it all'.
I don't think I have ever had an official blog, not if you count Xanga which I never really considered a serious blog anyway. Just a bunch of random musings, if not mostly to vent about frustrations over a boy!
Well, this took me long enough!! I have been on the computer since 12 a.m., maybe even longer! Oh I really hope I stick with this otherwise I am going to kick myself in the shins for wasting what 3 hours I really needed to use for sleep. Sleep-deprivation on top of sleep-deprivation + THAT time of the month....yeah, you do the math!
But I figure this is worth it. I don't have to waste my time later this evening trying to come up with a title and a url for my blog. I am going to try and sleep a full 8 hours because I suspect it will be the last time I will EVER sleep for 8 hours until the end of August next year!
WHEN: It is the eve of the day I go back to school. I am officially a student....again! Only this time, I am in it to receive my license, finally! Even if it is just for Vocational Nursing, at this point, that is cause for celebration. Unfortunately, *some of you may not agree. Oh well! We will just have to agree to disagree on that issue.
WHY: I created this blog so that I could update you-my dear family & friends-on our family life. I can only imagine the worst after school starts: that this year will just be one big blur & I will miss out on most of the moments because my nose is stuck in my nursing books or sleeping or working, who knows? I sincerely believe that I am doing this to BETTER not only myself both academically & educationally, but to benefit my family. I am expecting the worst, & hoping for the best. I am nervous, scared, & excited all at the same time because, as many of you already know, this has been a long time coming. Yes, I should have finished a LOOOONG time ago. But you know what? I don't regret my children. Having them did not stop me from continuing to pursue what I wanted to do. It delayed it, somewhat.
Sure. I have a hard time, I'll admit. I have had a hard time and I will have an even harder time, if only for this year. But still I am BLESSED.
This is where you fall in.
HOW: You see, I could find a million and one things to be negative about, but I am choosing to remain positive. I am choosing to remain focused and remind myself why I am doing this in the first place. Your love, your on-going encouragement, and overall continued support, not just monetary, (if that is what you believe your role is in my life) is what is making this effort possible. I sincerely believe that we are only as strong as our support system.
WHO: In the past, the end goal was only for me to be able to provide for and create a life for myself, but now....Isaiah and Audrey have changed all of that. They are THE REASON.
This is an account of my journey, for ONE YEAR....
as a mom,
as a nursing student,
& as a partner.
And at the end of this journey, if 'this is all I have time for', (sharing snippets of daily life whether it be a line or an account of a whole story because, really, it IS all that I have time for) so that I can provide a better life for my children, myself, and my family as a whole, then my hope and prayer is that I will be able to say, 'it was worth it all'.
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